4. Do Not work According to Man’s Opinion or Personal Decision:

According to my own mind, I would have liked to move in with missionary Lian.  Was it not better to live with those who served the Lord and ministered together than to live at the house of an unbeliever?  In addition, she warmly extended her love and welcome to me.  However, from what she shared with me I realized that the group could know many things right away when they prayed together, but some of her teachings swerved from the truth.  As a result, I not only refused to join her but also stopped any fellowship with her.  I advised myself that though I was a no-name missionary and could just do a little for the Lord, I must obey the Lord’s guidance.  I could not associate with those who did not preach the pure truth.  Those bodies in Christ I met at Mrs. Jian’s house regarded me too highly.  Though I had promised her that I would go, the Holy Spirit forbade me to go.  I called her to apologize to her.  However, she still called me many times and said: “You have to come.  There have been many people who have called me to ask whether you will be the speaker.  They have all known that you will come.  If you do not come, you will really pierce my heart with grief.”  I simply laughed and replied: “I promised you by my own will. Since I now know that I was wrong, I immediately apologized to you!  I could only pierce your heart but not the heart of God.  Just tell them that this time Ms. Xu will not come, but the Lord will come!”  Of course, this made many people resent and misunderstand me.  But how could I offend God to please man?