3. Offend People for Lack of Wisdom

                The sister who helped me with lodging had grown too fond of me.  She even “massaged my back” when I was preaching.  I felt it was disgusting.  Many times at daybreak, she would knock on my window and want to come in to be with me.  Sometimes I fled lest she should disturb my quiet time.  At times it may be right not to accept people’s love, but I was lacking in wisdom.  My attitude was so blunt that I offended her.  When men’s love changes, it becomes hatred.  As a result she spoke ill of me behind my back.  Some people even suspected that I was a spy of the Chinese government.  I sensed that men’s attitude had changed, the cloud was lifted, and it was time for me to move forward.

                At this time my aunt wrote to me from China.  In her letter she blamed me for not caring for my own relatives, but only associating with brothers and sisters in the churches.  She asked me to visit her children since they had come to New York one by one.  I contacted my cousins and decided to stay with them temporarily.  Although the host and hostess sincerely urged me to stay, I bid farewell to them.  I have remembered them in my heart for their kindness even until today and have interceded for them unceasingly.